Realised i've been pricing risk completely backwards

Was going through my trade log from the last couple months and something clicked that i'm almost embarrassed to admit Ive been sizing my options positions based on how confident I feel about the setup. Which sounds fine until you actually look at the numbers. my highest conviction trades were my biggest losers. not because the thesis was wrong but because I'd go heavy and then the position would move against me 1% and i'd paper hand out of it because the dollar amount was too much Meanwhile the trades I was unsure about i'd take tiny size. Those would work out and i'd be annoyed i didn't put more on so basically I was running the opposite of what any rational person would do. sizing up when emotionally attached. Sizing down when actually thinking critically Spent a few hours yesterday just drilling entries on a trading game simulator just to decouple the decision from the dollar amount. Not paper trading exactly, more like just repeating the mechanics of entry and exit without caring about pnl. weirdly helpful for separating conviction from position size anyone else notice this pattern in their own trading or am I just uniquely bad at this