I wish I had someone to talk to about this

I think I’m doing pretty well as a retail trader. I swing trade Long Calls/Puts. I have definitely had some pretty bad red days and some fantastic absolutely parabolic days. In a span of a little over one year, I’ve gone from between 3k-6k to now 171k. But it doesn’t feel real to me. When I compare myself to the average investor, it seems like the typical trader is not doing as well. So I feel like I’m having a hard time seeking guidance on how to keep going safely. I know I’m supposed to start upscaling my trades a little more now, but I’m kinda scared tbh. Anyone with a similar growth experience have some advice? Or maybe YouTube recommendations? I do like listening to Words of Rizdom interviews and Lance Breitstein.