Bet everything but the house…should I quit my job? 87.3k Loss SPY Puts.

Well…my vehicle broke (I’m very mechanically inclined, parts are too expensive to fix it), lost the fiancé, lost my cat, lost my job (unemployed right now), and lost my life savings. More or less just YOLO’d into a bunch of options because my fiancé left me for another guy three weeks before the wedding. Worked out for a second. I was down to my last 4k then back up over 50k overnight! Then lost it on 0DTE puts on SPY when it just chopped three days in a row. On the bright side, I don’t have to pay rent or utilities since I live off grid in a small house I built with electric and well water! I didn’t bet the vehicle or the house. I have about $800 left in my bank account. I plenty of meat in the freezer and cheese…so I can make it about another two months. Job searching is rough lately, applied for just about everything I can think of with zero luck. My deficit is settling tomorrow. I’ll have like $50 in there…how can I make $87,369? 😂 For the record, she left me when I had 60k in my bank account 😂